Tuesday, November 29, 2011

It's not just about the numbers

Although I'm down a few more pounds (and extremely grateful) I'm in it for the long run.  I'm concerned with overall health and wellness.  That's why I'm so excited about Dr. Eric Lewis.  I had a free 15 minute consultation with him yesterday.  This appt. allowed me to get a greater understanding of nautropathic medicine and how holistic healing can be beneficial.  I have my first appt. with him on December 6th.  Being healthy is going to feel GREAT.  I'm looking forward to feeling good AND losing more weight.  What's the point of being thinner if I'm sick and weak?  That's why I don't just do cardio.  I'm building muscle so I can be a mighty woman of God.  I want to be strong inside and out.  I'll keep you posted as to my health goals/progress.  Today's weight was 243.6.  That's 42 pounds!!! 

Thursday, November 24, 2011

Happy Thanksgiving

So today is a precious day filled with love, gratitude, family, friends, relationship and food.  All of these things are wonderful and should bring joy and peace.  However, so many years have gone by and at the end of the day I feel thankful, blessed and MISERABLE all at the same time.  For years I've overeaten on purpose, all the while knowing that I would feel badly later.  I've chosen to eat too many sweets, a second helping of everything (especially broccoli casserole) and just felt bloated, sore and guilty.  Instead of being grateful and happy I've been filled with unmet expectation, guilt and sadness about my obesity and love/hate relationship with food.

Today I'm grateful for food.  I'm thankful that I know how to eat "clean".  I am grateful that I don't have the desire or compulsion to overeat today.  All of those sweets, carbs and tempting treats hold no appeal for me today and I am so thankful.  I am down 39.6 pounds and am proud of that accomplishment.  Food is fuel.  End of story.  It isn't my comfort.  It isn't my friend.  It isn't a companion any longer.  Daily I work on eating less and eating more slowly.  Choices face me everyday as to what to eat, how to prepare food, etc. and I am so aware of God's guiding hand. 

This year I'm filled with knowledge, empowerment, and hope.  I am changing and it's hard.  I am thankful for sweat, running suicides, lifting weights, bosus...my list could go on and on and on honestly.  Maybe I'll take some time to blog another entry of gratitude.  However, today I really wanted to capture how I was feeling about food and it's pull on me.  TODAY I don't feel it.  I pray that tomorrow and the next day and the next I feel the same. 

Wherever you are, whatever you eat, whomever you celebrate with...BE FREE.  Enjoy yourself.  Taste everything, but don't EAT it all.  Make wise choices and Happy Thanksgiving.

Wednesday, November 23, 2011

A new path...a better way

So I've come once again to a fork in the road of wellness.  Today's weight is 246.  That's a total loss of 39.6 pounds. 

I am having a consultation with Dr. Eric Lewis on Monday.  He is a natural health doctor.  This is something different for me, but I am quite excited.  I'm not sure if I will be able to afford the process or how it is all going to work out, but I won't know unless I go, huh???!!!  I am open to supplementation, I'm open to clean eating, I'm open to finding out the BEST way to heal my body and to make it completely healthy.  I also am looking at a product called Essentials by Akea and I've been approached about the Body by Vi challenge.  I have already visited Healthy Traditions and had a session with Kathy Stickler.  It feels good to be teachable.  I am reading anything I can get my hands on about health.  I am going to buy a new book this weekend "Eat Right for Your Blood Type". 

I am loving this journey I'm on and don't ever plan on going back to the "old" me.  I am moving better, I am eating better, I am feeling better than I ever have.  I am taking the high road, the road less traveled.  I'm walking AWAY from the "American Dream" and towards freedom, health and wholeness.  I'm walking in my purpose and calling and discovering the abundant life and it feels GREAT.

Saturday, November 19, 2011

"Disappearing Act"

So I've disappeared from the blogging world.  I'm sorry to ANY of you that waste your time following me...hahahaha!

I've been through something in the last few weeks that I want to share about, so I'm MAKING the time today.  I went to the ER on November 6th with stomach pain/pressure.  I was admitted after a CT scan of my abdomen/pelvis.  I was released after almost a 48 hour stay in the hospital.  The official diagnosis.......OBESITY (like I didn't know that), Gastritis w duodenitis, and a duodenal ulcer.  OUCH!!! 

I have been miserable since I came home although so VERY thankful that I am not experiencing the pain that I did in the hospital.  I really have NEVER experienced pain like that.  It was worse than giving birth to Joseph medication FREE.  I am thankful for delodid (if that's how you spell it). 

Since coming home I've followed docs orders.  I have also managed to lose 16.2 pounds.  Please hear me, I'm not complaining about the weight loss.  I'm not even complaining about the amount of food I'm eating now or the things I've had to give up dietary wise.  I just want to feel better overall.  There has to be a better way than pain, pressure, bloating and almost everything I'm eating coming up or out almost immediately.  I am going next week to call a naturopath and get some advice.  There simply has to be a better way. 

The holidays are approaching and I'm not even excited about cookies, hot chocolate, pumpkin pie, turkey, etc.  I just feel YUCKY!!!

So I'm open to suggestions, advice, teaching, instruction and something different than what I've been doing.  The most frustrating part is I've been changing my diet over the last year.  I do very little dairy.  I eat free range meats and mostly organic vegetables.  That's why I was so sad when I found out I was having stomach issues.  However, I'm not giving into discouragement.  I'm gonna press up and onward.

So today I weighed 247.5 that is a total loss of 38.1 pounds.

Thanks for reading,

Grateful but not 100%