On the way down....

The scales are moving again ever so slowly and I'm grateful!  This morning 196 ;-)

New Incentive

I have an anniversary coming up soon.  No, not a wedding anniversary.  That was on May 20, 2012 and Nathan and I celebrated 17 years.  This anniversary marks the point that I said "I'm done being fat".  October 31, 2012 will mark two years of being a pilgrim on the road to health, wholeness and seeing my feet (hehehehehe).  So to mark this day I would LOVE to celebrate by stepping on the scales and seeing 185.  That would be my first 100 pounds GONE!!!  The scales today said 198.  This number has been fluctuating due to apathy, PMS and this dreaded cold I have right now, but I'm not bummed.  I'm back on track and that's exciting.  So by Oct. 31, 2012 (68 days) I need to lose 13 pounds.  Two years, 100 pounds and countless inches.  What a glorious day that would be for my entire family. Oh and my 20 year high school reunion is on Oct. 13, 2012.  I can't decide if I should go or not go, but I'm leaning towards going and looking fabulous ;-).

Get Your Head in the Game

So I've got to get my head back in the game.  Being on autopilot too long is placing me dangerously at the brink of becoming sloppy, apathetic and unfocused.  The last month, although mostly productive in both weight loss and fitness goals, has been "off". 

Confession time...I must admit that I have allowed certain thing to slip back into my life that have somewhat sabotaged me and my progress.  Nathan makes EXCELLENT bread and I have allowed myself to have the occasional slice.  Then it was a slice with butter.  Then it was a slice with butter AND jelly.  Also I've made some "comfort" foods for Nathan and the kids that I've indulged in (i.e. lasagna, zucchini pie, things that are cheesy, bready and full of "casserolish goodness").  Oh, I can't forget the peanut butter pie, key lime pie and ice cream I've had this last month.  Sheesh....it's a miracle I crossed below 200 pounds.   

Social eating, mindless eating, snacking, skipping meals, overeating, making bad choices, these are all things I've done in the last month.  It's time to STOP!  Now is the time to take control again, get my head straightened out, figure out why I've been coping/acting this way.

Grateful that I can isolate things, see patterns and become present enough in the moment, in my life to make necessary changes.  I'm not where I want to be, but I'm not where I used to be, either.  I have a goal to be at my 100 pounds lost by 10/31/2012.  That's 100 pounds in 2 years.  Then I am going to strive to lose the LAST 50 in another year.  So...by 38 1/2 years old I'll be my goal weight.  I think that's attainable. 

My 100th Post

How fitting that for my 100th post I can announce that my 100's "place" has FINALLY changed.  That's right ladies and gentlemen, drum roll please.......the scale this morning said 198.  I now live and reside in one-derland!  I didn't want to announce my achievement prematurely so I waited to be sure.  Two days consecutively it said 199.5.  The next day it said 198.5 and then this morning 198.5.  I guess it's REAL!!!  Here's a pic to prove it.

To celebrate this accomplishment I went for a ten mile trail run with Leslie and Wendy.  3 hours and 40 minutes running/walking/hiking.  It was intense, challenging and FUN!!!  I'm not as sore today as I thought I would be, and I'm grateful for that.  I also celebrated that challenge with a nice, juicy burger and salad last night on date night.  It was YUMMO!!!

Thanks for all of your support, encouragement and love along the way.  I've crossed a line and I'm NOT going back.  With God's help I will NEVER be over 200 pounds.  Thanks for reading.  Leave me some love if you don't mind.  Have a great weekend. 

Oh and I guess now I can start spending my $199.  I'll keep you posted.