Friday, December 31, 2010

My Fitness Pal

So there is this REALLY cool app for the Droid that I downloaded and started using today call My Fitness Pal. It tracks my caloric intake, amount of water ingested and activity level. I have the ability to scan barcodes from food items to get the nutrition information. It even gives me info for food from retaurants. I hope it is a useful tool in this journey.

Happy New Year,


Monday, December 27, 2010

It's Monday... the Monday after Christmas wasn't as "good" as the Monday after Thanksgiving. The scales said I weighed 282 this morning. So that means that I have put on 2 pounds in the last few weeks. My first goal was to be at 275 by Christmas. I didn't meet that first goal. However, I NOT going to stop. I'm NOT going to consider myself as a failure. I'm going to keep trucking along. I'm going to keep walking the right path, the better way, the road to health. I just wanted to keep sharing and being honest. I NEED your help. I NEED your accountability. I NEED your prayers and support.

Too many sweets. Too many sugar drinks. Too much caffiene. Too much of EVERYTHING. Overindulgence is paying it's price. I had a bad case of heartburn that last about 12 hours. YIKES. So today I started my day with water and oatmeal.

Merry Christmas and Happy New Year. I'm looking forward to 2011 and the pounds that I am going to lose and the "better" me I am working on becoming/revealing.


Friday, December 24, 2010

Wish I Had More to Say

I wish I had more to report.  Honestly at this point I'm just hanging in and hanging on for the ride.  I have maintained my weight loss, but haven't lost anymore.  I haven't been consistent with my walking or working out :-(.  Boo hoo....

I really just need to focus.  I need to make a list of priorities, dreams, goals.  I simply cannot visualize myself in any other condition than the one I am in currently.  This makes me sad, but it's true.  I'm praying for motivation.  I'm praying for strength.  I'm praying for change.

Merry Christmas,


Tuesday, December 14, 2010

MOTIVATION (or lack thereof)

I'm REALLY struggling with motivation these past few weeks.  This snow hasn't helped.  My lil' guys have been sick or Leslie has had sickness or other reasons that we can't meet.  I am chomping at the bit to get back on routine.  Honestly I just don't have the internal motivation or ambition yet to keep up with healthy eating/journaling/working out.  I want to do it I just don't/can't. 

Reminds me of Romans chapter seven.  Here is that passage vs. 14-25 in the NASB "For we know that the Law is spiritual, but I am of flesh, sold into bondage to sin. For what I am doing, I do not understand; for I am not practicing what I would like to do, but I am doing the very thing I hate. But if I do the very thing I do not want to do, I agree with the Law, confessing that the Law is good. So now, no longer am I the one doing it, but sin which dwells in me. For I know that nothing good dwells in me, that is, in my flesh; for the willing is present in me, but the doing of the good is not. For the good that I want, I do not do, but I practice the very evil that I do not want. But if I am doing the very thing I do not want, I am no longer the one doing it, but sin which dwells in me. I find then the principle that evil is present in me, the one who wants to do good. For I joyfully concur with the law of God in the inner man, but I see a different law in the members of my body, waging war against the law of my mind and making me a prisoner of  the law of sin which is in my members. Wretched man that I am! Who will set me free from the body of this death? Thanks be to God through Jesus Christ our Lord! So then, on the one hand I myself with my mind am serving the law of God, but on the other, with my flesh the law of sin."

So much I want to much I need to do!!  God I pray that you would capture my heart, mind, soul and strength and give me YOUR grace to walk this journey.

Any thoughts out there?  How do you get back on track?  How do you stay motivated???  HELP!!!


Monday, December 13, 2010

Sunday, December 5, 2010

There's Strength in Numbers

So I posted earlier about accountability and it's importance in success.  Well I was chatting with a friend of mine on FB last night and we decided a FB group might be helpful.  So...I'm gonna try and start one today.  I will invite people so let me know via email if you wanna join.  Oh and I'm open for suggestions about creative titles for the group.

I can tell that I'm still having trouble with internal motivation.  Leslie was sick on Thursday with a Migraine and I didn't work out because she wasn't here.  Also I was just TOO tired to go to class on Saturday.  NOT GOOD.  Pray for me that I can keep making changes so that I don't feel as if I NEED somebody to get me going.  I was also doing REALLY well with my walking and I haven't walked in about two weeks.  YIKES!!
Yesterday was sure a shot in the arm though.  I had to find a shirt to wear for the Christmas musical on the 12th.  I went to Catherine's and found a turtleneck.  I'm not too happy with the fit, but I hope it will work.  Aside from that the dressing room is TORTURE AND MOTIVATION all in one.  I HATE those lights.  I HATE those mirrors.  I have a lot of work to do and I realize that even though I am going to lose weight I will NEVER look like a model.  I just want to be healthy, happy, whole and FREE and I'm on the way.

So once again I'm grateful that today's a NEW day.  Even though there's ice on the ground I'm gonna try and get my legs a walkin' today.  Gonna make the FB group.  Gonna eat healthy and clean.  Gotta drink some water!!! 

Have a blessed day,


Friday, December 3, 2010

Vita Mix

So I was blessed by a friend of mine named Angie.  She has a Vita-Mix that she isn't using currently.  We LOVE it.  It's a few years old and has seen some use, but it works perfectly for our needs.  More than likely we will purchase an upgrade of our own when we can.  We use it for smoothies, making baby food and all kinds of other stuff.  I am learning so much about the benefits of juicing and healthy living.  This machine is going to be a BLESSING to our family as we walk down this path.  I can use it for soups, dips, smoothies, sauces ALL kinds of stuff.  Can't wait to keep you posted on recipes I discover.

To Healthy Living,


Thursday, December 2, 2010

I love hummus

So a new found favorite snack...hummus!!!

Currently we have Sabra Supremely Spicy flavor in our fridge.  I LOVE it!!

I'm up because of a laundry dilemma.  So a little hummus helps to pass the time.

Another brand I really like is Cedar's Garden Vegetable flavor.  YEAH for healthy stuff that tastes good. 

Being Held Accountable (Long POST)

*LONG POST*  Get comfortable, sit back and read away!!!

Accountability is almost a curse word these days.  People want to live their own lives ANYWAY they please.  They don't want to be held accountable by any kind of authority.  This could mean parents, teachers, government officials and even "a higher power", THE higher power, GOD!!!  Ok...that soap box is for another blog :-)

I have chosen to become accountable to people in my life.  I was a part of Celebrate Recovery for many years.  This meant that I was held accountable by a small group of trusted women by sharing in group, talking over the phone, meeting with my accountability partners etc.  I LOVED it and miss it very much.  However, this season of my life does not lend itself for a weekly CR meeting. 

Well I knew that embarking upon this journey to health and wholeness was NOT going to be easy.  I knew that I needed some accountability.  So I have prayerfully chosen to share my situation with others.  I am sharing through this blog.  Most women won't disclose their weight.  I have chosen to share it with ALL of cyberspace.  I am choosing to allow the worship team at Mtn. View to hold me accountable.  I shared with them in last nights rehearsal a brief statement about needing to be held to the "fire" and wanting them to speak the truth to me in love.  I also am being held accountable by my mother.  We meet weekly to share our food journals and weigh.  Lastly, yet most importantly I am being held accountable by Leslie Raper and the other ladies in the Women's Conditioning class on Sat. mornings. 

So I have SO FAR TO GO, but I'm on the way.  I WANT you to come along with me.  I WANT you to speak the TRUTH IN LOVE if you see me making a bad decision, I WANT you to pray for me and with me.  I WANT you to ask how I'm doing/how things are going.  I WANT TO CHANGE and I NEED help!!!

Thanks for listening, sharing, loving and encouraging,