So I've got to get my head back in the game. Being on autopilot too long is placing me dangerously at the brink of becoming sloppy, apathetic and unfocused. The last month, although mostly productive in both weight loss and fitness goals, has been "off".
Confession time...I must admit that I have allowed certain thing to slip back into my life that have somewhat sabotaged me and my progress. Nathan makes EXCELLENT bread and I have allowed myself to have the occasional slice. Then it was a slice with butter. Then it was a slice with butter AND jelly. Also I've made some "comfort" foods for Nathan and the kids that I've indulged in (i.e. lasagna, zucchini pie, things that are cheesy, bready and full of "casserolish goodness"). Oh, I can't forget the peanut butter pie, key lime pie and ice cream I've had this last month. Sheesh....it's a miracle I crossed below 200 pounds.
Social eating, mindless eating, snacking, skipping meals, overeating, making bad choices, these are all things I've done in the last month. It's time to STOP! Now is the time to take control again, get my head straightened out, figure out why I've been coping/acting this way.
Grateful that I can isolate things, see patterns and become present enough in the moment, in my life to make necessary changes. I'm not where I want to be, but I'm not where I used to be, either. I have a goal to be at my 100 pounds lost by 10/31/2012. That's 100 pounds in 2 years. Then I am going to strive to lose the LAST 50 in another year. So...by 38 1/2 years old I'll be my goal weight. I think that's attainable.
Very attainable :) You can do it.
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